[Felvtalk] Tucker

Thu Jun 9 10:22:33 CDT 2016

Rachel
You are in my thoughts.  Our little Ruthie died in my husband's arms.  We
also have her ashes.  I will never forget her.  We only had her a short
time, almost two years.  But she was very special.  I hate FELV so much.

Christine
On Jun 9, 2016 7:50 AM, "Rachel Dagner" <rdagner at novahrc.com> wrote:

> I picked up Tucker’s ashes yesterday. I was really worried as I didn’t
> know if it would make me feel better or worse. I haven’t eaten since Sunday
> my appetite is nonexistent, I have managed to choke down a couple protein
> shakes. My eyes are so swollen, I feel bad for anyone who has the
> misfortune of looking at me, or being around me for that matter. Well, I of
> course cried all of the way to the vets, and all the way home. But then I
> curled up in bed with my little box of Tucker, and I actually did feel a
> little more at peace. I laid there with him and went through my pictures
> again and talked to him about all of my feelings and my love for him, about
> our memories and how much I miss him.
>
>
>
> I have actually been in touch with a rescue group I found on pet finder,
> they test every cat for FELV/FIV while many others don’t. I know that there
> is no sure thing with testing, and I wouldn’t trade my time with Tucker for
> anything in the world. I just know that emotionally and financially I am
> not ready for FELV again right now. If it happens, just like with any
> illness, then I deal with it, because that is what you do.  I am going to
> Petsmart over in Tampa on Sunday to meet their kitties, I have no idea if I
> will be ready, or if this is what I desperately need to do to help me heal,
> but it won’t hurt to go meet them and see how my heart feels. One of the
> greatest gifts Tucker gave me is that “no cats” Harry, when I showed him a
> pictures of a kitty on Pet finder he said  “Is that the one you want to
> get?” So I know now that I will never again have to live without the feel
> of that soft fur on my face or the heart melting sound of purring in my
> ear. It is so hard because I am scared to get one, and I am scared not to.
> I guess we will see what happens…
>
>
>
> *From:* Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-bounces at felineleukemia.org] *On Behalf
> Of *Ardy Robertson
> *Sent:* Wednesday, June 08, 2016 11:59 PM
> *To:* felvtalk at felineleukemia.org
> *Subject:* Re: [Felvtalk] Tucker
>
>
>
> I’m just so happy that you had that kind of relationship with your
> fur-baby. The memories are wonderful. I recently adopted another cat even
> though I said I would not. No one will ever take Tigger’s place in my
> heart, but Topaz is easing the pain. I may never have that bond that I had
> with Tigger or like you had with Tucker, but I figured that was not a
> reason to not try again, and with all the little homeless kitties, I think
> Tigger would have wanted me to help another kitty. Certainly take your
> time, but I hope you can open your heart again at some point.
>
>
>
> Ardy
>
>
>
>
>
> *From:* Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-bounces at felineleukemia.org
> <felvtalk-bounces at felineleukemia.org>] *On Behalf Of *Rachel Dagner
> *Sent:* Wednesday, June 8, 2016 7:22 AM
> *To:* felvtalk at felineleukemia.org
> *Subject:* Re: [Felvtalk] Tucker
>
>
>
> Thank you everyone for your kind replies. I knew it was going to be hard
> for me, it has been even harder than I ever imagined. I went through all of
> my adorable pictures of him last night. Remembered him how he was and
> imagined him that way again. He was such a cool and handsome little guy. I
> only had him for a year and a half. In that time we went through so much.
> Emergency vet visits, surgeries, worry. I wouldn't change it for the world
> though. He touched my life and heart so much. I opted for a private
> cremation, so I can keep him close to me always. I was the one person in
> his life that he loved and adored more than anything, and he never doubted
> my love for him.
>
> Sent from my iPhone
>
>
> On Jun 8, 2016, at 8:02 AM, Katherine K. <kathstix at gmail.com> wrote:
>
> I'm sorry about Tucker and for the pain you feel. I hope the happy
> memories you shared bring you comfort during this difficult time. We're
> here for you.
>
>
>
> On Wed, Jun 8, 2016 at 1:37 AM, Ardy Robertson <ardyr at centurytel.net>
> wrote:
>
> I'm so sorry for your loss of Tucker.
>
> Ardy
>
> -----Original Message-----
> From: Felvtalk [mailto:felvtalk-bounces at felineleukemia.org] On Behalf Of
> Rachel Dagner
> Sent: Tuesday, June 7, 2016 9:33 AM
> To: felvtalk at felineleukemia.org
> Subject: [Felvtalk] Tucker
>
> I lost him yesterday morning. He was having a really hard time breathing
> due
> to the tumor in his chest. It was time, they got me in right away. It was
> so
> very hard to say goodbye. I haven't been able to quit crying since.
> It's so unbelievably hard, even knowing that it would happen soon. I miss
> him so much. Everything reminds me of him. I am at work luckily alone
> today,
> and can't quit crying. I had him with me at work last week and he was
> laying
> on my desk and purring and sleeping. It's just so hard to believe he is
> gone. I sat in the parking lot at my vets for at least an hour with my car
> door open, just in case he spirit needed to get inside and come home with
> me. I know it will get better, but right now the pain is just unbearable. I
> know that those here who have gone through this understand where I am right
> now.
>
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